Public speaking… many people are scared of that. Some people have fear of heights, of flying, of spider, of confined spaces, of crowded places, of blood, of water, of animals, of being alone, of thunder and lightning and other fears.
I am scared of needles and of injections. I was not fearful of these before. But after several medical procedures that involve needles and injections, I developed trypanophobia, the extreme fear of medical injections or hypodermic needles.
Every time I have to undergo a medical procedure that involves needles, I experience dizziness, fainting, anxiety, elevated blood pressure, insomnia, emotional and teary-eyed (often times cry). I need someone to coach me to breath during the injection because I literally stop breathing. My second son is always there to hold my hand and to talk to me until the procedure is done.
During a blood test procedure, my youngest son was the one who accompanied me. They needed 3 test tubes of blood for the needed tests but halfway on the first tube, my blood just stopped oozing due to the panic and anxiety. Imagine how scared my youngest son was. After that, he never assisted me. Poor kid!
Today, I had my covid vaccination. It was supposed to be just me. However, my husband had it too since it was the requirement at his work. It saves time to have it at the same time. Before the injection, the doctor explained everything to us. Normally, one would sit down for the injection. I had to lie down because of my fear. I was feeling faint. My son was holding my hand. The nurse was coaxing me. The doctor was standing and was supervising the procedure. I felt all the signs of trypanophobia, but I felt reassured that I was taken cared of well.
At the moment while I am writing this, I feel some of the side effects of the vaccine. I was given the AstraZeneca. I took pain reliever. I will be fine after a few days.
I want to thank my sister, niece, sister-in-law, family and close friends. When I told them I was really scared of the scheduled vaccine that I was having today, they validated my fear. It is good that you acknowledged my fear and not just brushed it off. That meant a lot to me. Brushing off someone’s concerns will make the person feel bad and will not open up about anything anymore for fear of being ridiculed or ignored. My gratitude to my loved ones who sent me messages to ask how I am.
I was genuinely scared because of my needle phobia and because it is covid vaccine. Sure… I read, researched and asked about the effects of the vaccine. I know all about the tests, effectivity, safety, etc. of the vaccine. But I think for a person like me with many underlying medical conditions, it is normal to be worried.
Anyway, I am sharing this for others who have the same fear as mine. It is okay to be scared. Don’t try to be tough. It is ok not to be ok. It gives opportunity for others especially your loved ones to take care of you and to support you.
Here are some photos that can show more than what I am describing in words. My youngest son is our family’s photographer so he was the one who took these photos.
Thank you for reading my blog, dear reader.
I wish you good health and a strong immune system.
Take care always.